In Response

To those who have said the following things...

'At least you still have one baby.'

'Two would have been a lot to manage...'

'Thank God for back-ups.'

Our reply is a quiet yes, but a louder no.

Yes, God gave us a bio baby.

Yes, we are abundantly blessed.

Yes, we are forever thankful.

NO, God did not put these babies in front of us and then realize, 

'Hmm, two might be more than they can manage.' 

NO, Bio Babe is not and will never be a "back-up."

That is not how God works. He doesn't mess up. God doesn't require hindsight or create back-ups for His own work.

Brian and I can't claim to see how God's hand is at work right now. We know He is working. We know He has a plan. We even know it's a good one. But that is not the same as understanding why something is happening. However, despite sadness, perspective remains. I have experienced the loss of a nephew. I have watched my brother and sister-in-law travel the gut-wrenching, heartbreaking path of mourning the loss of their own baby. The loss of life, the magnitude of which I can't comprehend. The loss that Brian and I currently experience is painful, but so minimal in comparison. We are thankful for all we have been given, but still we wonder... He placed a birth family in our life, allowed me to be present at the 20 week ultrasound, placed 'August' in our hearts and allowed four months of relationship-building and love-growing. What was His plan through it all? Were we a shining light to the birth family? Was he somehow using us in a way we can't yet see? We hope so, but perhaps we'll never see. What we know is that He is working. He urges us to look outside of ourselves, past our own questions and confusion, to place our trust in Him. And that is what we will do.

*  "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not rely on your own understanding.  *

Acknowledge Him in all your ways, and He will make your paths straight."

Proverbs 3:5-6

*  "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him,  *

who have been called according to His purpose."

Romans 8:28

Thank you to all who love and support us. Not one kind word or prayer goes unappreciated.
Thank you for rejoicing with us in the happy times and lifting us up in life's sad moments.
We love you. :)