After today's conversation with Angela, our Bethany caseworker, our adoption has officially come to a close. For now, that is.
Bethany's protocol (as they love to call it) is that they do not place within a minimum of 6 months of another baby. When families like us become pregnant their adoptions are put to a complete halt. (Had our adoption not been pending [meaning we had already been chosen] when we found out that we were pregnant, ours too, would have been put on hold right then. Now that our birth parents have changed their mind and we are no longer pending, our profile has been put on hold.
What this means for our future is that when Bio Babe reaches 6 months of age (and not one moment earlier, according to protocol) Brian and I may reevaluate whether or not we are ready to begin the process again. Should we choose that we are ready there are many things (Physicals, Finger Printing, Background Checks, Family Profile, Homestudy...etc.) that would require renewing, which in many ways means starting all over again.
A huge weight of being put on hold is the knowledge that when we restart the process we will need to repay for all of the above listed services. In the meantime, Bethany holds what we have paid up to this point (about half of the total cost) as services that have already been completed and therefore are not eligible for refund. It is our prayer that when the time comes for us to at last complete this grueling adoption journey (we've been trudging since November of 2010) we will somehow be able to scrape together the necessary funds. God blessed us on round 1 and we are trusting that He will do so again when the demands of round 2 face us.
Until then, between now and next May/June, you can expect to read less about adoption on our blog. (At least a lot less than you have been reading here lately.) Brace yourselves, though, this may mean increased pregnancy talk is on the horizon. A girl's gotta have something to talk about... :)
*** Our intention to welcome a family member through adoption has not changed. ***
We will adopt.
It's just a matter of when...